I am going to confess something, if you have been following for sometime then it wont come as a shock, but I don't do well when out in public. I am what you call an introvert, I love my personal space, keeping to myself and the least amount of social interaction. If I could I could stay in my house and never leave or the perfect scenario would be that when I do for there to be the least amount of people surrounding me, sadly that is not life. I have to go outside and I have to be out in public like other humans do, okay it is not that bad but mostly because I keep quiet. Just because I don't say anything doesn't mean that I don't think about it, if you were to see me I look calm and collected when in reality there are thousands of thoughts going through my head completely freaking out. I have had the idea to write about this for some time in hope that someone out there can read this to confirm that I am not entirely crazy. Without further ado here are some thought that go through my head when out in public.
- Smile, don't forget to smile.
- Looking, people are looking!
- Look down, don't make eye contact but be polite.
- Breathe, deep breaths.
- Oh cute shoes! I wonder where she got them from.
- Hears talking, why can't I be normal and have a conversation.
- People approaching please don't stare.
- Aww! They make a lovely couple.
- I don't what to run into anyone I know!
- Nice lady approaching, please don't talk to me it really isn't you its more of a me thing.
- What am I going to order, I can't think, someone tell me what I am going to order!
- Talk confident to the cashier and smile. Breathe, You can do this!
- Where do all these people come from?
- I wonder what they are thinking of?
- Why is there trash on the floor don't they know that is what the bin is for, Global Warming people!
- How can you help me? please let me shop alone, I know it's your job but you are making me want to leave.
- Obnoxiously loud person please talk lower the person you are talking to is right next to you.
- Don't be awkward, haha who am I kidding I will never pull normal. I wonder if strangers automatically think I am an awkward person.
- What does an awkward person even look like? me.
- Hello Stranger! God makes beautiful things. I think I have found my husband, talk to me. Wait never mind lets not talk you can leave bye.
- Did he just let the door close on her, then they complain why we say there are no gentlemen. Its not even a gender thing, manners people.
- Why is that tiny child on their own, where are the parents, any adult, don't leave tiny humans unattended.
- Please go through, please go through, wait why am I freaking out there is more than enough money in the card.
- Awe! That was such a sweet person, I hope they have a nice day.
- Don't breathe, don't breathe, hold the air in, do your business and leave quick. I hate public restrooms.
- Please don't smoke, I already find breathing difficult with asthma if you want to contaminate your lungs that is your decision but don't poison mine. Thank you.
- Pretend you didn't see, Why do I always catch people doing embarrassing things, poor people that was funny though.
- How rude! You don't just bump into someone and keep walking, apologize! Manners!
- Pedestrians have the right of way, careful with walking humans.
- I miss my bed.
- I wonder where everyone is heading today, where are they going to, how far is it, what will they do.
- Laugh silently! Hold it in, it hurts, hold it in forget it was funny, everyone will turn to look if you laugh normally.
- Okay, I feel like they are following why do they keep walking in the same direction. Please give a different turn, let it be a coincidence.
- Oh clouds thank you for following me just holding in until I have shelter over my head.
- Puddle! I am an adult they shouldn't be this exciting but they are so fun, pretend you didn't notice and walk through.
What are some of your thoughts?